This was years in the making. A sublime plan at work to eventually bring together two souls at the perfect time. We each had to experience love, loss, pain and joy while apart so we could appreciate everything we will experience together.
I had always felt like I had to earn love. I would give freely, but felt like I had to meet expectations in order to receive love in return. Because of this, I always wondered what was the big deal about love. People would talk about how much they loved each other. I would see marriages last while mine failed. I wondered, what is wrong with me?
After spending time alone and getting to know myself, I realized my worth, but still didn’t believe the kind of love people talked about existed for me. I figured I would never be in a ‘real’ relationship and I was okay with that.
Then the plan that had always been in motion, took a turn that would change my outlook on love forever. Seeing the love my parents had for each other when they couldn’t be together (more on that in my book), changed everything for me. Losing them 2 months apart, realizing they literally could not live without each other, made me see that true love was real. So, thanks to my Aunt Mari, I put into the universe what I truly wanted. I wanted the kind of love that is all-consuming, heart-breaking, breathless. I wanted someone I could grow old with. Someone with whom I shared history.
After 13 years, the universe brought Robert back to me. At the perfect time when both of us were free to love. And he loves me like no other. He respects me, he receives my love in return, but then showers it back onto me. Enveloping me in blankets of love, kindness, support and caring. This is love without walls. And I am eternally grateful.
That One Day When... 